I’m feeling a bit bleugh today. I am very pleased to have reached another month alcohol free, and yet, I am battling with myself. The urge to do something to ruin it all is there. It’s almost as if I cannot deal with the peace and quiet.
I am craving drama and excitement! Normally it is me that creates the chaos and now I feel as though I have lost a part of myself lately. This is the madness of my inner thoughts.
I am certainly not going to drink and I don’t really want to, I’ve come so far. Just need something… More.
In other news… I am finally losing weight – after so many months of eating all the cakes – the urge to stuff my face is finally diminishing. Hurrah.