By going out of your mind, You come to your senses. ~ Alan Watts.
I am trying to stay grounded today, as my anxiety spirals out of control. I desperately want to numb out the bad feelings, but I will not.
This will pass. I do not wish to numb out the best feelings. I will use my coping skills to manage the feeling and not let it overwhelm me.
My life is full and busy, my heart is full. I feel satisfied and content most of the time, and yet, there is this cloud of sadness, a wave of anxiety which follows me around.
I am so thankful and grateful for everything that is in my life, but sometimes, it All feels like such an effort.
I turn into shouty mum in the morning, and then the guilt washes over me, it’s almost the same every day…
I do Ask for help, yet nobody seems to hear me…
I want to stay in bed and rest. I feel exhausted. My soul is tired.
Sometimes it is all too much.
My mind is so confused, and confusing. I feel at war with myself. I am conflicted. I don’t want to fight against myself all the time.
I have decided to stay away from Facebook for a while, I’m hoping this will help a little.
Sometimes I feel like I will never be free from the pain that haunts me.