Last week, I bought a bottle of alcohol free wine. Dealcoholised apparently… It has been sat in my fridge for three days, and I have been just thinking it over.
I didn’t know what to expect, or how I would feel about trying a ‘ wine ‘ like this.
Years before my alcohol use got out of control, I used to drink wine, but it was never socially, never one or two glasses.. it was always drunk in a problem way, although it didn’t affect my life back then.
So, tonight, I opened the bottle. Hmm, it smells like wine, it looks like wine, and it tastes like wine. Sort of. I’m not sure how I feel about it just yet. It feels kind of cool to sit downstairs on my own ‘ with a glass of wine ‘ and ‘ relax ‘ … Like the normal mummies do! Ha. It does taste like an adult drink, so that is good I guess, it would be something different to have at a social gathering.
I’m now laying in bed, wondering if it’s made me want to drink Alcohol, and I really don’t think it has.
I do feel kind of naughty and a bit giddy – as though I have done something that I shouldn’t… But I know I haven’t consumed anything alcoholic, and I don’t feel like I’ve been drinking. It’s a good thing.
I don’t imagine that I would drink this stuff regularly, but I am glad that I tried it.
Still sober. In bed with my meditation app before 9pm. I’m hardcore!