I feel like a different person this week. I am confident, and feel good about myself. I'm making an effort to put some makeup on and actually do my hair, and it makes such a big difference. What a total turn around from a couple of weeks ago... I've been on the Quetiapine for almost... Continue Reading →

The Other Side Without Drinking

I think I am finally getting over the mental episode of the last two weeks. I still feel quite fragile, but I'm not going to burst into tears now. Yesterday I went out for a hot chocolate and a cake with Meg, which was lovely, and last night I began putting together a playlist for... Continue Reading →

New Pills

Quetiapine Quetiapine, marketed as Seroquel among other names, is an atypical antipsychotic used for the treatment of schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and major depressive disorder.[6][7] It is also sometimes used as a sleep aid due to its sedating effect, but this use is not recommended.[8] It is taken by mouth.[6] Quetiapine Clinical data Pronunciation /kwɪˈtaɪ.əpiːn/ kwi-TY-ə-peen... Continue Reading →

Can’t Fall Apart

I'm clinging onto my sanity by a thread. I am exhausted constantly now. I am doing my best, every day, to maintain a level of normality, mostly just for the girl's sake... I feel like I'm falling down the rabbit hole. But I cannot Fall Apart. I have been prescribed a new medication to help... Continue Reading →

BPD Episode

My mental health is really suffering. I am angry, anxious, sad and lonely. Then as if by magic I feel nothing at all. While walking Milo today, I sobbed and sobbed. I can't carry on like this. I am exhausted with all the distress and stress in my head. I have been referred to the... Continue Reading →

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a serious mental illness that centers on the inability to manage emotions effectively. The disorder occurs in the context of relationships: sometimes all relationships are affected, sometimes only one. It usually begins during adolescence or early adulthood. While some persons with BPD are high functioning in certain settings, their private... Continue Reading →


I received a beautiful and fun card today. From my cousin Heather in Wales. My heart is full of gratitude and love right now. I feel so fortunate for my family in Wales, but I have never really been very close with this side of my family, for many reasons. It is a deep regret... Continue Reading →


Yesterday was my birthday. I am now 39 years old. It was a good day. Today is also a good day. I feel positive and bright again. I am overwhelmed by all the love shown to me for my birthday, and it helps me to realise that I'm not such a bad person after all.... Continue Reading →

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