A man I used to know is seriously ill and in pain, all because of alcohol and drugs.
He is Dying, and it’s such a heart breaking situation. If only he’d been honest with himself and the people around him that love him, perhaps he could have sought help and support to get clean and sober. We Do Recover. We Can Recover if we are honest with ourselves.
I feel sad about the news of this man, even though I am not directly effected by the situation.
I feel so very humble and blessed to continue on my journey with sobriety, but I also recognise how easily that could all turn around, how I could be the person in a hospital bed, turning a toxic colour because my liver is failing, if I just take my eye off the ball… I feel blessed, but also fragile.
Once you are in that bubble of addiction, it is so hard to see a way out… hard to know who to trust, who to confide in. Your life becomes a web of lies and deceit. You believe that alcohol is your friend, and nobody understands what it’s like. In fairness, most people don’t know or understand what it’s like to be an addict…
Anyhow, I’m not here to use another’s misfortune, I’m just trying to process my feelings.
My heart hurts because I was once where you are now…