Summer Holiday

School is out for summer officially! I am feeling pretty positive about the coming weeks, and hoping to make it memorable for the girl. We haven't got much planned, but I will arrange to meet with school friends and have days out. We are headed back to Barrybados in the middle of August, so that'll... Continue Reading →

Alice

Here we are again. My eldest daughter is coming to ten years old next week. I feel gutted and ever so sad. Obviously the people close to me, know that this is a massive trigger and upsetting time for me. My daughter, Alice, lives with her father in Wales, as far as I know... I... Continue Reading →

Fall Down Seven, Stand Up 8…

Its been a tough couple of weeks around here. Im slowly beginning to feel like myself again, and coming back to the world.  My mental health has not been at its best for a few months really, if im totally honest, and I have been scrambling around in the dark a bit. I have obviously... Continue Reading →

Gratitude Part 975

I'm back, and I'm sober and still moving forward. Yay. I asked for help during my crisis point, and my friends really did step in and look out for me. People came by to take the girl to school, and pick her up from school. Someone else offered to walk the dog... Basically I didn't... Continue Reading →

Random Holiday Thoughts

Thursday It's very warm! A bit too warm for me! Today I will try to spend the entire day with my family, without my phone. I will attempt to have fun and be pleasant. I'm trying to get used to doing nothing and relaxing. I have my audiobook which I am desperate to get back... Continue Reading →

Make up and holiday

Well, it's been a fairly positive two weeks since I started my new meds. Some mornings I wake up in a bit of a rage, but mostly I am feeling really good. I have started to experiment a bit with make up this past week, something that I am not very comfortable or confident about,... Continue Reading →

Confidence

I feel like a different person this week. I am confident, and feel good about myself. I'm making an effort to put some makeup on and actually do my hair, and it makes such a big difference. What a total turn around from a couple of weeks ago... I've been on the Quetiapine for almost... Continue Reading →

The Other Side Without Drinking

I think I am finally getting over the mental episode of the last two weeks. I still feel quite fragile, but I'm not going to burst into tears now. Yesterday I went out for a hot chocolate and a cake with Meg, which was lovely, and last night I began putting together a playlist for... Continue Reading →

BPD Episode

My mental health is really suffering. I am angry, anxious, sad and lonely. Then as if by magic I feel nothing at all. While walking Milo today, I sobbed and sobbed. I can't carry on like this. I am exhausted with all the distress and stress in my head. I have been referred to the... Continue Reading →

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